Dhyan Rakhna, Bye!

Hey D,

Just wanted to say Goodbye here. But before I leave, i wanted to say few things:

You were the only person I actually liked enough to travel to meet. I was simply smitten the moment i saw you and I was like " I really want this person in my life ". I am not a brave person and I am introvert, but for you somehow I had the courage to travel to Ranchi and meet you. So, first thing first, thank you for taking out time to meet me. 

The reason I said, I wont bother you ever again was not just because of one thing, rather multiple reasons were behind it, such as:

•  Whenever I said something, usually the conversation was never carried forward by you, it was always ignored and I always used to think if you have any interest in me.
•  I talked about divi, but you ignored her. Didnt even ask who she is. I mean i understand we are not in a relationship or something like that, but kuch toh curiosity hoti hogi na. I never felt that
•  Whenever I asked to do something, I mean i was not asking for anything big, they were just small things such as updating your own pic on whatsapp profile pic but it was ignored several times
•  Even small things like while i was trying to see if i can find topics for research in GIS domain via AI, i know I was not successful to help you as I am not an expert and maybe i was not giving the right prompt to get info via AI. But I saw no response which showed that you value the efforts, not even a thank you.

I know love marriage nahi hai, but kuch toh feel hota hoga na. Itna feeling less nahi feel hona chahiy na uske sath jiske sath puri life spend karne ki baatein ho rahi ho. 

During talking to you over last couple of months, I felt multiple times that you didn't have any interest and I wanted to end things, but tumhara ek msg aa jata tha and main sab gussa bhul jata tha. Maine kai baar bola bhi tha via whatsapp msgs. Also, Remember last time when we talked around AI usage for GIS and i said ki kuch batana hai and you kept on asking ki kya hua and i said bataunga baad me. I was sure that I should not move forward but I made a mistake and talked to you several times and bhul gaya gussa.

Anyway you dont owe me anything. You dont have to do anything and I mean nothing to you, but shayad maine apne mann me faltu kahaniyan and expectations bana li thi and I made things complicated for myself.

I have no complaints now. Thank you for amazing conversation, however short lived they were. I liked you and I should have kept my expectations low. You are not at fault. It was my mistake that I made things much more than they really were in my mind.

With this, I would like to say good bye. Ye relation kabhi hona bhi nahi tha, agar hona hoga to ho jaega, if you really want it you will find a way to contact me, but I think its time for me to leave.

Mere liye shaadi aisi koi important cheez nahi hai ki bas karna hai to karlo, mere liy shaadi usi se karna important hai jisko mujhe interest ho ya jiske liy main important hu. I can stay single for rest of my life but aise bas shaadi karni hai and family approval k baad achanak se feelings aa jaengi, ye mere bas ki baat nahi hai. I know mera brain thoda ajeeb hai.


Take care of yourself and be happy.
You will find someone great, Dipu 💖 !

[PS : this website will be deleted within 24 hours]

Signing off
Just a stupid guy